Happy birthday

Happy 20th birthd@y~~!!

This post is specially for u...

but i still wanted to ask u that,

today is the how many that we have been together?

hmph, now then just calculate!!

just now said me didnt pao milo for u,

never knew that where was the milo came from..

不感恩...=(

I think mostly this post is for me to scold u, not greeting u..

Good~~

Always didnt tell me things,

And hor...

put profile picture with other galsS..=P

AnywaY,

Enjoy ur big day~

Everyone,

help me add oil ba..

i m decided to do revision and finish all my undone tutorials by next weeks...

& pray that i will be discipline..

This whole semester i only know about 50% of what lecturers had taught,

Sound bad, right?

ya, i know...><

To pursue one thing, i have to give up one thing,

i decided to give up choir,

i cant give commitment,

& i cant found any motivation to go anymore,

since i know that what is the first main purpose that i leave my hometown and came here for study..

I always hard to open my mouth and say this reason out,

i know they need help,

but,

now even myself also hard to save...

I had skip the practices a lot of times due to my academic stuff,

That day, i went for the practice, i started to see them had build up relationship among themselves, and i felt that they are getting further from me,

i think that is a good thing,

because after i go, they will blame me or what,

they even feel good!

At least i wont feel that i had disappointed them..

Down of the valley

Long time didnt update my blog..

within these 2 months,i had done and experienced a lot of activities and so on(included not feeling well & big issue with my ulcer again)...

Went to Klang, busy with exams, reports, homeworkss...

Sometimes i even started to feel that i always chasing by the time and homeworksS...

Time always run faster than me..

Homeworks and exams always chasing me..

others always ask me that am i really that busy?

YES, I am~~!!! ><

Few more weeks, i m going to have my final exam,

honestly, i m getting less confidence.

After exam, going back to Kch & have a medical check up on that 'ulcer',

my dad asked me to go for laser...

Well, all have to decide after check up..

Now then, both of mr cough and mr sore throat finding me again...

These few months, i also experienced a lot of friendship problem.

how much fren i really have in College?

But, i cant find any answer.

I thought between friends,

there is no gossip or bad words between friends,

there is full support and understand between friends,

there is care and love between friends,

if u dont have any worth o use value, then u will get kicked away?

i always used to have friends from the time i small until one year of form 6,

Sometimes my ears or eyes do hear and see something,

just i pretend to be dont know...

Or is my problem?

mostly is...

i always hurt people indirectly although i didnt mean it at all...

i always dont know how to talk softly and peacefully ,

i always let my mood express out and affected ppl that around me..

I m a super poor in EQ,

I m dont know how to 撒娇...

I found that if the foods, stuff, colour that i like or words i said before, no one will remember, they just will know the others favourite...

Maybe this is me myself too sensitive...

All i want is just to be care,

I know maybe i too garang or serious...

ya, i know...

DOnt worry, i ll used to it..=)

I ever had a cold war with a friend,

because i ever treat her as my good friends,

told and share with her everything,

but at last i found the things i knew about her were wrong,

maybe is me didnt look deep enough,

She nevers know why i having cold war with her,

i beg she even thought because of contact lens stuff...

But now, i started to relieve,

because 家家有本难念的经...

& I also seldom talk with my brother and sister,

even talk to them, i also will feel shy( too long didnt comunicate with them)...

Complicated feeling

Snail, this is especially for u..

today i had killed you, i m sorry...

I tried not to kill you again..

today, i saw the lab assistant poured the hot water into a pail that full of snails...

after that, we picked the snail that we want and help them wash off the mucus, they are very stiff and excrete a lot of sticky mucus.

then, we broke the shell by using hammer and scissors and without touching the mantle cavity. Seriously, it was v hard,

until the top 2nd layer, we only need to turn around,

then completely can see the structure..

snail, thanks for your contribution.

Next week, i m having 3 exams..

algebra, calculus and chemistry..

I m super stress, this is the consequences of last minutes study.

I know that my friends are improving,

but,

how about me?

feel like i m still at the starting point..

keep busying and put concentration on other stuffs..

I dont know that whether this is correct or wrong..

because 自尊心和好胜心太重了..

I hoped that someone can teach me or explain to me,

but my mouth too heavy..

well,

Honestly, i havent truly understand the application and know how to do algebra and chemistry.

i know all of this very well,

just that i never want to admit...

thanks God that i get a v good marks for my biodiversity mid term test...

Glory to God.

The lesson i had learnt this few day,

LESS GOSSIP!! & BE MORE GRACEFUL

I will try to improve =)

Busy

One word>> BUSY!!

Super busy!

I have left a lot of undone homeworksSS & reportsSS~~

Christina,

u getting lazier~~!!!!

U better finish them by this TWO WEEK!!!

Time flies~~

Well,

i have been studied one year in tarc,KL..

i have been became ''KL ppl'' for one year lur...

Today is the new intake for another batch,

which means i had became senior~ =D

Time flies~~

I still remembered when the first time i went to KL,

was still very flesh and like a white paper,

missing home a lot,

full of dreamsSS..

Now then started to worry whether there is job for me to do or not after graduate

haiz,

so many things to worry...

i think now better not to think so much,

I still have 3 more years to go..

Life still have to carry on~~ =)

Add oil~~

Dont think too much~~

NOw just concentrate my target first..

Gambateh~~!!!

U sure can!!!

This is a group of friends that i knew them during KL tour. NOw some of them already loss contact or no communicate anymore although in college(btw, our college is the largest college amount the others if i m not wrong)

well,this is my classmates for semester one. Some has been shifted to nother group, of course there are some new members added in, show u guys next time(*if i remember) =x

This is some of my church friends^^

迷糊的界限

这几个星期，我一直在想...
我真的有做好自己的本分吗？
还是表里不一？
我真的有表达我自己最真实的一面吗？
我也不清楚..
我开始不了解我自己...
很想进步但不知从哪里下手..
我开始的慢慢地锻炼我的耐心，恩慈和良善...
我真的很缺乏这些...
但是，
我也不知道是不是真的有改进...

这几年，我发现我开始慢慢的变了，
不再像以前那么开朗，
不再像以前那么东蹦西跳，
以前的热情，表达能力也不见了·...
这是不是所谓的成熟了,而所谓的稳重呢？
还是逃避...
我也不知道..

但我知道我开始慢慢地有心机了...
不是很多，就一点点...
也没那么单纯了...
不是说会做坏事或害人还是骗人，
只是开始了解真实社会的表态，
也许就像有人告诉我说我开始明白和踏入一小步了...

金钱，名义，利益，付出的结果
应该很多人在乎吧..
我开始慢慢了解着一些，
前几个礼拜，我才经过这些诱惑，
那时候的我觉得
当一个人付出时，应该获得回报，
当一个人帮了你，应该要有感恩的心，
当一个人给了你利益，你也要报答回他，
我曾那么想过...
这个问题是值得思考的...=)

有一些人付出同样多的时间，经历，代价，
但，
每一个人得到的成果并不一样...
这就是每一个人的领悟能力和看得重点都不一样...
而不是他聪明还是笨...

*付出的人比得到的人更有成就感*