Everyone,

help me add oil ba..

i m decided to do revision and finish all my undone tutorials by next weeks...

& pray that i will be discipline..

This whole semester i only know about 50% of what lecturers had taught,

Sound bad, right?

ya, i know...><

To pursue one thing, i have to give up one thing,

i decided to give up choir,

i cant give commitment,

& i cant found any motivation to go anymore,

since i know that what is the first main purpose that i leave my hometown and came here for study..

I always hard to open my mouth and say this reason out,

i know they need help,

but,

now even myself also hard to save...

I had skip the practices a lot of times due to my academic stuff,

That day, i went for the practice, i started to see them had build up relationship among themselves, and i felt that they are getting further from me,

i think that is a good thing,

because after i go, they will blame me or what,

they even feel good!

At least i wont feel that i had disappointed them..

Down of the valley

Long time didnt update my blog..

within these 2 months,i had done and experienced a lot of activities and so on(included not feeling well & big issue with my ulcer again)...

Went to Klang, busy with exams, reports, homeworkss...

Sometimes i even started to feel that i always chasing by the time and homeworksS...

Time always run faster than me..

Homeworks and exams always chasing me..

others always ask me that am i really that busy?

YES, I am~~!!! ><

Few more weeks, i m going to have my final exam,

honestly, i m getting less confidence.

After exam, going back to Kch & have a medical check up on that 'ulcer',

my dad asked me to go for laser...

Well, all have to decide after check up..

Now then, both of mr cough and mr sore throat finding me again...

These few months, i also experienced a lot of friendship problem.

how much fren i really have in College?

But, i cant find any answer.

I thought between friends,

there is no gossip or bad words between friends,

there is full support and understand between friends,

there is care and love between friends,

if u dont have any worth o use value, then u will get kicked away?

i always used to have friends from the time i small until one year of form 6,

Sometimes my ears or eyes do hear and see something,

just i pretend to be dont know...

Or is my problem?

mostly is...

i always hurt people indirectly although i didnt mean it at all...

i always dont know how to talk softly and peacefully ,

i always let my mood express out and affected ppl that around me..

I m a super poor in EQ,

I m dont know how to 撒娇...

I found that if the foods, stuff, colour that i like or words i said before, no one will remember, they just will know the others favourite...

Maybe this is me myself too sensitive...

All i want is just to be care,

I know maybe i too garang or serious...

ya, i know...

DOnt worry, i ll used to it..=)

I ever had a cold war with a friend,

because i ever treat her as my good friends,

told and share with her everything,

but at last i found the things i knew about her were wrong,

maybe is me didnt look deep enough,

She nevers know why i having cold war with her,

i beg she even thought because of contact lens stuff...

But now, i started to relieve,

because 家家有本难念的经...

& I also seldom talk with my brother and sister,

even talk to them, i also will feel shy( too long didnt comunicate with them)...