A worth camp i had....=)

Lol...thanks god.i have learnt a lot of thing through this camp. Thanks god for let me know that u always be there for me,and let me find back the heart for worship and only seeking for u..Lord,u are the only one who know us well,i m sorry that this few months i loss my track and forget i should concentrate on u.. Lord,thanks for everything. I know what i should do know...realy thanks a lot... It is ht eimt e for let me put down everything to continue move on. I know u ll always guide me and show what u want to prove to me... Well,through this camp,i also know that my immune system not as good as b4... because the last day i didnt play and have fun with them at camp permai,i just rest n sleep due to nt feeling well,should be say is 贫血..=.=.... Time stil moving on,while we should keep moving on too... Got to rest now,stil feel v dizzy...><

Santubong!!! Camp permai!!

Tomorrow i ll going to a church camp. 2 days one night...we had planned that we few gang dont wan sleep whole night..woots,dont know ll able tahan or not.. lol.. & we plan want to watch ri chu(opposite of sun set) ehh...suddenly forget what s the word..=.= sun rise? 2nd day we ll go to camp permai and play the NS stuff...
Finally... i m waiting it since the begining of the year because i can throw all the unhappy thing and enjoy in the camp. I hope through this camp,i can know what i should do for my next step.. pray that god can give me a clearer vision or tell me what should i do..coz i really dont know what should i do now... so miserable now... Studies,relationship stuff,weakness,confidence,and so on...haiz....now i have to just wait for god's answer... Wait PAtIENtlY...!!!!
10 more hours to the camp... wuhoo..finally....^^

A busy wednesday

Phew,i had made full use of today....today whole morning just stay at sunday school camp tp help them take care the kids and do jobs...Run here and there,feel like v blur..seriously,it really help me can temporarily stop thinking of him..Until 2pm,i straightly rush to chemistry tuition. I thought that i couldnt concentrated during tuition but already busyin whole morning,luckily i stil can..^^ Besides that,I found out that i managed to catch up chemistry without depends on others. It s a great thing. Well,feel very tired after finished tuition,although only 2 hours. Mayb i already keep busyin whole day... when reach home,then start practice piano,i try to let myself not to have free time to think about him,but seems like it failed... Lol..stupid.. Tonight i gonna to sleep early to recharge my energy.

真实?虚幻?

是不是爱得太真实?
真实到都不想放下了呢?
情绪和状况都非常的糟糕,
笑容也渐渐不见了,
要怎么找回了呢?
如果我告诉你我现在很想你,你会怎么回我呢?
还是会是一样的结果,不回我讯息呢....
我该怎么办...
真得很辛苦...
若真的有选择让我怎样忘记你，
我宁愿就这样失去记忆....

...

一切的思念都只能藏在心里，

没人能了解...

总觉得痛，

难以释怀.....

真的....

很不习惯一个人的空气....

Thunder shock

Just found out....he...gt a new one..if not wrong... Luking at few of his photos....he quite close with one gal...since i knew him so long,i think i gonna b right... Now..feel like v painful..can hear the cracking sound... feel wanna to cry..but...like no more tears le... feel so speechless..... So tired...who can help me? Please.....It is so.....painful.... Like cant breath anymore..no more oxygen for me...

...

FOcUS!!
CoNcEntrAtE!!!

Pray

Until

Something

Happen!!!

Dear Lord,i know that u never will leave me...

just let me focus on u..

concentrate on u!!

最幸福的事...

最幸福的事 --梁文音

你撑着雨伞 借我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂后来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最后一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最后一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识
是最幸福的事

After hearing this song,made me think a lot..really feel v xing fu that have u in my life,at that moment,really let me feel really v happy,and getting more greedy of it...too bad..i cant...and ever became as your angel before...Lol..ever...pass le... it true that i let u have the final decision on it... i cant have any right of saying it.. mayb...this is the ending of the story.. In reality,there s no fairy tales... Now the most happiness moment is when i can immersed in happy memories... They all will store deeply in my heart forever... I still need some more times to let go... I dont know how long it takes,....i ll try my best... although keep failed...>.<
By the way, lilian,really appreciate of your comfort. After hearing what you had to say,I felt reasurred.xiong,thanks for praying for me. I do really need it a lot...



This is another song which means a lot to me...
我不是你想像那麼勇敢

Sweet Dream? Or Nightmare?

Why U ll appear in my dream? isist a sweet dream that u in my dream? Mayb is..but when awake form dream,is a nightmare... BAck to reality,i cant even talk or see u,i only can try to forget u and let go which i totally dont know how to... In my dream,i dreamed that i went to kl n look for u,and we together back again, really felt v happy and hope time could stopped at there.... But,i knew it couldnt. I scare i ll dont want to wake up..Luckily i quickly wake up from it but it was 6 .38am...i dont dare to sleep back again,coz i knw if i continue tat dream,i scare i will disappointed and raining again when back to reality... i hope i never had this dream,it made me feel even worse...all my mind is your face,your sound,your every action... Goshh...i try not to think about u,i try to stop myself from keep viewing your facebook everyday... but i failed... what should i do..i really try hard to let go... But...y i fail to do so...? why u can do it easily?I really got try my best... Today is the worst day i have... how do i walk out form it...

只有十句话，却看了十分钟

I think this is nice...share with u all...

第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人

第三句
付出真心　
才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底保持距离　
就能保护自己却也注定永远寂寞

第四句
有时候　不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了　
还能喜欢你的人

第六句
就算是believe　
中间也藏了一个lie

第七句
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起　
就算不说话也不会感到尴尬

第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些　该放进心里的人

第十句
冷漠　有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具

原 來 很 簡 單‏

有個小孩對母親說：「媽媽你今天好漂亮。」母親回答：「為什麼。」小孩說「因為媽媽今天都沒有生氣。」 >>原來要擁有漂亮很簡單，只要不生氣就可以了。

有一個網球教練對學生說：「如果一個網球掉進草堆裏，應該如何找？」 有人答：「從草堆中心線開始找。」有人答：「從草堆的最凹處開始找。」有人答：「從草最長的地方開始找。」教練宣布正確答案：「按部就班的從草地的一頭，搜尋到草地的另一。」
>>原來尋找成功的方法很簡單，從一數到十不要跳過就可以了。

住在田邊的青蛙對住在路邊的青蛙說：「你這裡太危險，搬來跟我住吧！」路邊的青蛙說：「我已經習慣了，懶得搬了。」幾天後，田邊的青蛙去探望路邊的青蛙，卻發現他已被車子壓死，暴屍在馬路上。
>>原來掌握命運的方法很簡單，遠離懶惰就可以了。

有一隻小雞破殼而出的時候，剛好有隻烏龜經過，從此以後小雞就背著蛋殼過一生。
>>原來脫離沉重的負荷很簡單，放棄固執成見就可以了。

有幾個小孩很想當天使，上帝給他們一人一個燭臺，叫他們要保持光亮，結果一天兩天過去了，上帝都沒來，所有小孩已不再擦拭那燭臺，有一天上帝突然造訪，每個人的燭臺都蒙上厚厚的灰塵，只有一個小孩大家都叫他笨小孩，因為上帝沒來，他也每天都擦拭，結果這個笨小孩成了天使。
>>原來當天使很簡單，只要實實在在去做就可以了

有一支掏金隊伍在沙漠中行走，大家都步伐沉重，痛苦不堪，只有一人快樂的走著，別人問：「你為何如此愜意？」他笑著：「因為我帶的東西最少。 」
>>原來快樂很簡單，擁有少一點就可以了。

Tired....

I dont want myself keep emo...I hope i can find back my smile and be a strong gal...but..why! why u want to turn me become like tiz..i really v tired...i dun to b emo again...I know u wont come back and me..but..y i still want to put a small little hope on waitin u back..honestly..i havent let go,i knw i still keep waiting although i knw i shudnt...why human being so "mao tun"..why..... u are the 1st one who let me cried so many times.. I hate myself being like this,i hate myself keep disturbing my friends, Ihate myself keep telling same problem to my friend.... Isit i used to it? then i how long i nid to change this habbit... Who can answer me this....

沒有你,我活得下去嗎? 能~
沒有你,我都活了這么久了~
只是......習慣了有你的陪伴要怎么改?
习惯了有你的日子要怎样放下....

HAPpy BIRthDay!!!

Lol...today really v happy..and i realised that i really gt a lot of friends in my life and care about me a lot...really appreaciate of it... I received 6 presents,2 birthday cards and ate 2 birthday cake.. I felt v happy and satisfied when i see my facebook full of greeting from my friends.. lol...dont know y..i had celebrated my birthday with 3 group of friends(classmates,my gang, and my dancin's friends)..It really a happy and memorable birthday although i didnt got his greeting... nevermind le...luckily i also didnt had high expectation of it...
Thanks a lot!! & friends forever!!! ^^

Gathering with my gang at hart chicken.^^

My birthday present from my classmates

(& stil have a cute doggy)

All my school's friends greeting..^^

Almost!!! 11.58pm

Lol..2 more mins then i ll turn into 18 years old... haha.. and start received greeting from friends.. finally..this day is coming... dont know he ll greet me or not.. *KNOCK* Dont think about this.. change topic... Hope tomorrow i can pass through it happily...

this is the 1st present i recieve from friend,alex chin. although just the pic he drawn in msn,i stil feel appreciate to receive it.^^

Nice song lyrics

I wanna share 2 songs lyrics..They are nice and meaningfull...^^

Journey-Angela Chang
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know you'll be standing by my side
I know I will falter I know I will cry
It's a long long journey And
I need to be close to you
sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Coz it's a long long journey
Till i find my way home to u..


没有你的日子我真的好孤单
走一个人走
走得累了心却碎了
爱一个人爱
爱得哭了哭得倦了
路上行人在穿梭
伤了心的人究竟有几个
耳旁的恋人都在唱歌
可我的爱到底剩下什么
没有你的日子我真的好孤单
所有的心碎全与我相伴
没有你的城市我真的好茫然
所有的快乐都与我无关
没有你的日子我真的好孤单
思念的痛还在心里纠缠
没有你的城市我真的好迷乱
爱与不爱都已经太晚
回头太难

New Generation

Today is sunday..^^...as usual,i went to church service in the morning. Afternoon,i skipped my orhestra practice(=.=) and went to youth which i already long time didnt go..honestly...really change a lot... So zun,today happened a lot of thing that i never ever think of it ll happened.... today i got a bit became a teacher. Through what problem they having,i realised that what their mind thinkin is totally different with us.. Mayb is new generation meet different problem and situation. Or mayb nowadays teenagers have more relax and have more comfortable life.. Their problem getting more serious than us.& They dont even care or mind what they should do as a christian. I not saying that i m v good,just i got try to become better...Really hope that they can pray and rely on god more...and have a closer relationship with god. The most shocked thing is they dont even memorise 团训...some of them dont even know of it... *disappointed* haiz...


不可叫人小看你年轻，总要在言语，行为，爱心，信心，清洁上都作信徒的榜样。
提摩太前书4：12

Few questions that make u think hard...

Do u ever think before that what do u live for? Why do u exist in this world?
lol..try to think about it..i m sure everyone got diff answer... this is chia hin asked me..which i never thought about it before.. just take your time to think about.
Attention!! 4 more days to go...my 18th birthday is coming soon..^^

Lol..today was fun..i went out with my classmates...we went to sing karaoke whole afternoon at Absolute. we had lots of fun and joy at there. We sang a lot of songs,include keranamu,new year song & so on...besides that, my classmates sang 2 songs which were jay chou's songs..and they were.....related to him..really made me remember a lot of things... U really influenced me a lot.. Now i have to really get rid of it.. Life still have to go on.. & thanks for giving me so much memories... I wonder how many times i need to say goodbye to u... I have all of my friends who are the angels gv to me by god,accompany with me along my life,along my way... I wan say thank u to all my friends..thanks for being my friends..i really appreciate it...^^

Granpa,goodbye....

this is the last time....i called u granpa..thanks for giving me so much sweet memories.I wont forget about it... I ll try hard not to think about u again since we impossible to get back...I m admit is tough..but....i know i can... Mayb after few years later,i m proud of myself for doing this... There s no u turn in our lives,only can keep walking & facing new challenges. this is the challenges that god gives to me..i have to solve it by myself.I know sometimes still will miss u a lot,but I ll treat myself good & let u know that i can survive & live happily without u!!! I sure can just need time to prove it! No matter it takes how long is it... I hope this is the last time i say goodbye to u although i nt really sure about this...

抓不住的幸福

抓不住的幸福...

幸福是不是离我们很遥远，为什么常抓不住，渐渐得离得更远...
弄得自己满身伤痕，明知道跌倒就要站起来，但...却站不起来...
想要过没有你的生活原来这么困难，脑子里的每一幕都有你的影子，
明知道这样狠傻，但是却宁愿变成这样...
地球还是一样转动，日子还是一样的过，
但是...
为什么人的记忆还会想起以前的事，
回忆是间好的东西吗?
为什么我宁愿失去记忆也不想回想起...
突然不知道该怎么办,真得很痛苦....
很想找你...
但知道你已经不理我了...
我知道要鼓起勇气，狠下心的放弃了...
但有谁告诉我要去哪里找这份勇气.......
真得....很累了......
为什么要怎样痛苦.....

Stress...

STRESS!!!

Whole afternoon i having my piano and cello lesson... There was happened something which could said good....but..also could said was bad... I m taking my diploma piano for practical for this 2 years..hmm...already about a month & changed to a new teacher,Mrs Law. Honestly,she quite pretty and likes to talk a lot...but,she gives me a feeling that i will scare of her and i will practice what she gives to me... The good thing is I dont dare to be lazy and everyday will touch piano constantly,make sure the pieces are perfectly play..=.= the bad thing is i cannot manage my time well between it and my studies... In my plan,i have to take my dip practical exam by next year which is same with year with my stpm so that i can apply music at usm...
Today,Mr.Law praising me that i got improvement and she told me that i have caught some skill for playing diploma pieces..Seriously,quite happy to heard that...^^ The bad thing is....she gave me more pieces... GOshhh...which mean i need to spend more time on practicing...and she told me that dip standard nt cin cal lai de ar,nt like grade 8 le...Lol...getting more and more..getting more challenging than before...Mrs Liaw(my previous piano teacher) told me that actually i should sit in front of piano at least 3 hours per day...O.O... I think i need to manage my time well...I admit that i not good in anti stress..I think this is what god wants me to learn from...
Usshh! I knw i can do it!!!

errrr...mayb...=.=...

lol...i ll try my best...^^

This pic is taken on the last day i went to my grade 8 piano theory class.Miss the days a lot... YEar 2008

Get away from me..

Man...headache,fever come and find me again...I already long time didnt fall sick.. My friend told me that isnt my immune system updated...Lol..mayb... haiz...today i already didnt went o school.. Just now went o biology tuition,only 2 and half hours then feel more dizzy again... Tomorrow i guess i ll nt go sch again..which mean i cant sit for my Muet speaking test.. Haven told my parents yet...=.= now feeling my head is very heavy and dizzy... 10 nov i been booked by ying fang them...Lol...going to eat dinner with them at hawk chicken(I think i spell wrong=.=) thanks for remembering my birthday..
Guess...i need to go bed... Good night everyone...
Att: 8 more days to go...

A lonely sunday...

Today i just go church as usual...but..feel like missing something...All my best friends already gone overseas study,some busy their study thing.. Getting to harder to see them..I really miss them a lot..haiz...Hope u all can come back...
Afternoon,i went for my orhestra practice...woots,we are going to perform on 17 & 18 Dec at spring & cold storage. And the pieces is nice which called holiday salute..It combine all the christmas songs together.& i love it. too bad,i havent get the pieces yet..just sight read..=.=...
aftertat,i went out with my dancing friends.i already about 2 months didnt went out with them.. Lol,they stil the same...& talked a lot of thing with xiang..He reali was a nice bro,always care of me a lot.. just now I already told them about my plan..maybe i wont dancing anymore because i hv found out that i have to focus on my studies and music if i wan to achieve my dream. Well,hopefully i can...
There s 9 more days to come...which mean my birthday is coming soon.Lol...so fast...my 18th birthday. But i cant feel any happiness or looking forward to it...chia hin asked me what i want for my birthday,i just answered him that i want to pass through it happily..This really is my answer,I really hope that i can pass through it happily & can have a day that without thinking of him... Just hope i can put down it...as what he wished for...
9th more days to go...