Thunder shock

Just found out....he...gt a new one..if not wrong... Luking at few of his photos....he quite close with one gal...since i knew him so long,i think i gonna b right... Now..feel like v painful..can hear the cracking sound... feel wanna to cry..but...like no more tears le... feel so speechless..... So tired...who can help me? Please.....It is so.....painful.... Like cant breath anymore..no more oxygen for me...