disappointed

this is the 1st time i felt that my personal charcteristic been suspected by friend.
lol...ridiculous..

made me feel so disappointed and dnt know what to do..

honestly, cause of this, i cried silently for few days, 

maybe i just treat friendship too important, 

i m just feel tired,

 i wish i can move out as fast as possible,

eventhough i just stay here for about 2 weeks plus,

people doesnt like complicated relationship (well, i mean friendship)

so do i..

sometimes i just feel helpless..

i dont know who should i trust, i just so scare..

what m i going to do..

finally, i just understand what's the feeling of being not trusted and helpless

i...

just...

tired and lost..

do u trust me, anyone?

i started to lost, i dont know what is my real personal characteristics? 

am i a lier?

i dont know whether all i done isit correct or false? 

no one understand me..

Lord, i just tired, 

i just wish there is a shoulder for me to cry out loud,

i just wish there is a person beside me that said' i trust you'

anyone willing to lent me your shoulder? 

i just cant cry in front of people, isnt mean tat i the one who dont care others feeling,

isnt mean that i m the one who always hurt people?

why no people understand and ever think of why m i doing all these?

i just.....

disappointed...

aww, raining comes again..

i wish that sunny day comes..

but..

who can brings it to me..