一个人

慢慢地，开始了，习惯了，

一个人的感觉，

那天在学校餐厅，一个人时，

可以很清楚地听到

看到不同的鸟，

鸟鸣声，

水的声音，

风扇的转动声，

就连麻雀也跟我很近，

可以很清楚地看到他们的一举一动，

这种感觉真的很舒服，

不应在乎旁边的人这样看你...

也不会怕说错话伤到人，

很自在..

也许久了，

我也会习惯自己一个人，

也能享受... =)

Last night just celebrated pui ling and yee yang's birthday again..

although celebrate pui ling's birthday was my idea,

now not mine anymore..

maybe like that also better,

they ll more enjoy in it...^^

just they felt happy then that s enough..

I also had hurted them a lot...

Do this tiny stuff for them is just nothing..=)

i feel so tired no matter in physically or mentally,

I never felt happy,

i had forget how does a real smile looks like...

anything is start from negative..

now then,i started to emo and be quiet again,(awww, emo again! ><)

when a people smile,

doesnt mean that it has to be a real smile,

when a ppl smiling,

doesnt mean that she/he is really feel happy..

everything just too heavy for me to carry..

Dear Lord,

pls help me to remove all these abundant,

let me just live for u...

Through the celebration, i started to know what they like to eat,

is a good thing..

What Dr Tang told me

Learn to be more careful

Careful in every small detail,

Not just concentrate on the surface!

Train to be more careful and less Careless!

Then you can become a better person =)

Complicated feeling

Today i had some argument with him,

ya, i know u guys will said today was his birthday,

why?

and even if want to argue, why cant wait until tomorrow?

i know that 沉默是金...

But...it s already reached my limitation..

& i had done a bad thing,

even the church ppl celebrated birthday with him,

i didnt go,

ya, i very bad, i know...

after studying half of the long chapter...

a lot of plan didnt carried out, just everything telan into my stomach..

today i saw st thomas youth performance from facebook,

it was so creative,

and i m sure it needs alot of hard work and time~~

I really hoped that i had the chance to watch it,

i mean in live~~!! =)

today i still in a moody mode, cant even concentrate and focus on studies...

There s a long way to go,

I m just scared that i could not finished them in time...

*cough cough*

Dear immune system,

pls be stronger and fight with the mr cough's soldier..

I trust u~!

Happy birthday

Happy 20th birthd@y~~!!

This post is specially for u...

but i still wanted to ask u that,

today is the how many that we have been together?

hmph, now then just calculate!!

just now said me didnt pao milo for u,

never knew that where was the milo came from..

不感恩...=(

I think mostly this post is for me to scold u, not greeting u..

Good~~

Always didnt tell me things,

And hor...

put profile picture with other galsS..=P

AnywaY,

Enjoy ur big day~

Everyone,

help me add oil ba..

i m decided to do revision and finish all my undone tutorials by next weeks...

& pray that i will be discipline..

This whole semester i only know about 50% of what lecturers had taught,

Sound bad, right?

ya, i know...><

To pursue one thing, i have to give up one thing,

i decided to give up choir,

i cant give commitment,

& i cant found any motivation to go anymore,

since i know that what is the first main purpose that i leave my hometown and came here for study..

I always hard to open my mouth and say this reason out,

i know they need help,

but,

now even myself also hard to save...

I had skip the practices a lot of times due to my academic stuff,

That day, i went for the practice, i started to see them had build up relationship among themselves, and i felt that they are getting further from me,

i think that is a good thing,

because after i go, they will blame me or what,

they even feel good!

At least i wont feel that i had disappointed them..

Down of the valley

Long time didnt update my blog..

within these 2 months,i had done and experienced a lot of activities and so on(included not feeling well & big issue with my ulcer again)...

Went to Klang, busy with exams, reports, homeworkss...

Sometimes i even started to feel that i always chasing by the time and homeworksS...

Time always run faster than me..

Homeworks and exams always chasing me..

others always ask me that am i really that busy?

YES, I am~~!!! ><

Few more weeks, i m going to have my final exam,

honestly, i m getting less confidence.

After exam, going back to Kch & have a medical check up on that 'ulcer',

my dad asked me to go for laser...

Well, all have to decide after check up..

Now then, both of mr cough and mr sore throat finding me again...

These few months, i also experienced a lot of friendship problem.

how much fren i really have in College?

But, i cant find any answer.

I thought between friends,

there is no gossip or bad words between friends,

there is full support and understand between friends,

there is care and love between friends,

if u dont have any worth o use value, then u will get kicked away?

i always used to have friends from the time i small until one year of form 6,

Sometimes my ears or eyes do hear and see something,

just i pretend to be dont know...

Or is my problem?

mostly is...

i always hurt people indirectly although i didnt mean it at all...

i always dont know how to talk softly and peacefully ,

i always let my mood express out and affected ppl that around me..

I m a super poor in EQ,

I m dont know how to 撒娇...

I found that if the foods, stuff, colour that i like or words i said before, no one will remember, they just will know the others favourite...

Maybe this is me myself too sensitive...

All i want is just to be care,

I know maybe i too garang or serious...

ya, i know...

DOnt worry, i ll used to it..=)

I ever had a cold war with a friend,

because i ever treat her as my good friends,

told and share with her everything,

but at last i found the things i knew about her were wrong,

maybe is me didnt look deep enough,

She nevers know why i having cold war with her,

i beg she even thought because of contact lens stuff...

But now, i started to relieve,

because 家家有本难念的经...

& I also seldom talk with my brother and sister,

even talk to them, i also will feel shy( too long didnt comunicate with them)...