After i went to a camp,

I started to realize that i never really understood what are my friends like to do or eat..

Always is my turn to talk,

I never listen to them,

I seldom care about them...

I seldom put my time on them...

I always busy on my own things,

& selfish, only think of the things which have advantages for myself...

Now,

I have to grow up...

& remember to GROW, BUILD & SERVE!

We can Grow, We will Build, We must Serve~!!! =)

Sometimes,

may feel there s a lot of things that i want to talk,

but

there s another sound from my heart

keep telling me that,

YOu! better be quiet~!!

It s better for u~!!!

Sooner or later my mouth will become smaller(i wish)

Today had happened the most funniest thing,

there's one girl from my hometown church,

She thought that I was born at 87,

Lol, do i look that old?

That s my brother's born year...

I was totally speechless..

BUt, is ok, at least i know that i am more mature..=S

But, I still want to clarify here,

I was born at year 1991,

officially 19.5 years old! (not yet birthday=D )

她...

开始不说话了...

她...

开始不知道自己要什么了...

她...

只知道下学期要做什么，和放弃什么...

她...

知道累，寂寞，就是达到目标代价...

她...

只想这么做...

虽知两个人或一群人总比一个人好...=)

一个人

慢慢地，开始了，习惯了，

一个人的感觉，

那天在学校餐厅，一个人时，

可以很清楚地听到

看到不同的鸟，

鸟鸣声，

水的声音，

风扇的转动声，

就连麻雀也跟我很近，

可以很清楚地看到他们的一举一动，

这种感觉真的很舒服，

不应在乎旁边的人这样看你...

也不会怕说错话伤到人，

很自在..

也许久了，

我也会习惯自己一个人，

也能享受... =)

Last night just celebrated pui ling and yee yang's birthday again..

although celebrate pui ling's birthday was my idea,

now not mine anymore..

maybe like that also better,

they ll more enjoy in it...^^

just they felt happy then that s enough..

I also had hurted them a lot...

Do this tiny stuff for them is just nothing..=)

i feel so tired no matter in physically or mentally,

I never felt happy,

i had forget how does a real smile looks like...

anything is start from negative..

now then,i started to emo and be quiet again,(awww, emo again! ><)

when a people smile,

doesnt mean that it has to be a real smile,

when a ppl smiling,

doesnt mean that she/he is really feel happy..

everything just too heavy for me to carry..

Dear Lord,

pls help me to remove all these abundant,

let me just live for u...

Through the celebration, i started to know what they like to eat,

is a good thing..

What Dr Tang told me

Learn to be more careful

Careful in every small detail,

Not just concentrate on the surface!

Train to be more careful and less Careless!

Then you can become a better person =)

Complicated feeling

Today i had some argument with him,

ya, i know u guys will said today was his birthday,

why?

and even if want to argue, why cant wait until tomorrow?

i know that 沉默是金...

But...it s already reached my limitation..

& i had done a bad thing,

even the church ppl celebrated birthday with him,

i didnt go,

ya, i very bad, i know...

after studying half of the long chapter...

a lot of plan didnt carried out, just everything telan into my stomach..

today i saw st thomas youth performance from facebook,

it was so creative,

and i m sure it needs alot of hard work and time~~

I really hoped that i had the chance to watch it,

i mean in live~~!! =)

today i still in a moody mode, cant even concentrate and focus on studies...

There s a long way to go,

I m just scared that i could not finished them in time...

*cough cough*

Dear immune system,

pls be stronger and fight with the mr cough's soldier..

I trust u~!

Happy birthday

Happy 20th birthd@y~~!!

This post is specially for u...

but i still wanted to ask u that,

today is the how many that we have been together?

hmph, now then just calculate!!

just now said me didnt pao milo for u,

never knew that where was the milo came from..

不感恩...=(

I think mostly this post is for me to scold u, not greeting u..

Good~~

Always didnt tell me things,

And hor...

put profile picture with other galsS..=P

AnywaY,

Enjoy ur big day~

Everyone,

help me add oil ba..

i m decided to do revision and finish all my undone tutorials by next weeks...

& pray that i will be discipline..

This whole semester i only know about 50% of what lecturers had taught,

Sound bad, right?

ya, i know...><

To pursue one thing, i have to give up one thing,

i decided to give up choir,

i cant give commitment,

& i cant found any motivation to go anymore,

since i know that what is the first main purpose that i leave my hometown and came here for study..

I always hard to open my mouth and say this reason out,

i know they need help,

but,

now even myself also hard to save...

I had skip the practices a lot of times due to my academic stuff,

That day, i went for the practice, i started to see them had build up relationship among themselves, and i felt that they are getting further from me,

i think that is a good thing,

because after i go, they will blame me or what,

they even feel good!

At least i wont feel that i had disappointed them..

Down of the valley

Long time didnt update my blog..

within these 2 months,i had done and experienced a lot of activities and so on(included not feeling well & big issue with my ulcer again)...

Went to Klang, busy with exams, reports, homeworkss...

Sometimes i even started to feel that i always chasing by the time and homeworksS...

Time always run faster than me..

Homeworks and exams always chasing me..

others always ask me that am i really that busy?

YES, I am~~!!! ><

Few more weeks, i m going to have my final exam,

honestly, i m getting less confidence.

After exam, going back to Kch & have a medical check up on that 'ulcer',

my dad asked me to go for laser...

Well, all have to decide after check up..

Now then, both of mr cough and mr sore throat finding me again...

These few months, i also experienced a lot of friendship problem.

how much fren i really have in College?

But, i cant find any answer.

I thought between friends,

there is no gossip or bad words between friends,

there is full support and understand between friends,

there is care and love between friends,

if u dont have any worth o use value, then u will get kicked away?

i always used to have friends from the time i small until one year of form 6,

Sometimes my ears or eyes do hear and see something,

just i pretend to be dont know...

Or is my problem?

mostly is...

i always hurt people indirectly although i didnt mean it at all...

i always dont know how to talk softly and peacefully ,

i always let my mood express out and affected ppl that around me..

I m a super poor in EQ,

I m dont know how to 撒娇...

I found that if the foods, stuff, colour that i like or words i said before, no one will remember, they just will know the others favourite...

Maybe this is me myself too sensitive...

All i want is just to be care,

I know maybe i too garang or serious...

ya, i know...

DOnt worry, i ll used to it..=)

I ever had a cold war with a friend,

because i ever treat her as my good friends,

told and share with her everything,

but at last i found the things i knew about her were wrong,

maybe is me didnt look deep enough,

She nevers know why i having cold war with her,

i beg she even thought because of contact lens stuff...

But now, i started to relieve,

because 家家有本难念的经...

& I also seldom talk with my brother and sister,

even talk to them, i also will feel shy( too long didnt comunicate with them)...

Complicated feeling

Snail, this is especially for u..

today i had killed you, i m sorry...

I tried not to kill you again..

today, i saw the lab assistant poured the hot water into a pail that full of snails...

after that, we picked the snail that we want and help them wash off the mucus, they are very stiff and excrete a lot of sticky mucus.

then, we broke the shell by using hammer and scissors and without touching the mantle cavity. Seriously, it was v hard,

until the top 2nd layer, we only need to turn around,

then completely can see the structure..

snail, thanks for your contribution.

Next week, i m having 3 exams..

algebra, calculus and chemistry..

I m super stress, this is the consequences of last minutes study.

I know that my friends are improving,

but,

how about me?

feel like i m still at the starting point..

keep busying and put concentration on other stuffs..

I dont know that whether this is correct or wrong..

because 自尊心和好胜心太重了..

I hoped that someone can teach me or explain to me,

but my mouth too heavy..

well,

Honestly, i havent truly understand the application and know how to do algebra and chemistry.

i know all of this very well,

just that i never want to admit...

thanks God that i get a v good marks for my biodiversity mid term test...

Glory to God.

The lesson i had learnt this few day,

LESS GOSSIP!! & BE MORE GRACEFUL

I will try to improve =)

Busy

One word>> BUSY!!

Super busy!

I have left a lot of undone homeworksSS & reportsSS~~

Christina,

u getting lazier~~!!!!

U better finish them by this TWO WEEK!!!

Time flies~~

Well,

i have been studied one year in tarc,KL..

i have been became ''KL ppl'' for one year lur...

Today is the new intake for another batch,

which means i had became senior~ =D

Time flies~~

I still remembered when the first time i went to KL,

was still very flesh and like a white paper,

missing home a lot,

full of dreamsSS..

Now then started to worry whether there is job for me to do or not after graduate

haiz,

so many things to worry...

i think now better not to think so much,

I still have 3 more years to go..

Life still have to carry on~~ =)

Add oil~~

Dont think too much~~

NOw just concentrate my target first..

Gambateh~~!!!

U sure can!!!

This is a group of friends that i knew them during KL tour. NOw some of them already loss contact or no communicate anymore although in college(btw, our college is the largest college amount the others if i m not wrong)

well,this is my classmates for semester one. Some has been shifted to nother group, of course there are some new members added in, show u guys next time(*if i remember) =x

This is some of my church friends^^

迷糊的界限

这几个星期，我一直在想...
我真的有做好自己的本分吗？
还是表里不一？
我真的有表达我自己最真实的一面吗？
我也不清楚..
我开始不了解我自己...
很想进步但不知从哪里下手..
我开始的慢慢地锻炼我的耐心，恩慈和良善...
我真的很缺乏这些...
但是，
我也不知道是不是真的有改进...

这几年，我发现我开始慢慢的变了，
不再像以前那么开朗，
不再像以前那么东蹦西跳，
以前的热情，表达能力也不见了·...
这是不是所谓的成熟了,而所谓的稳重呢？
还是逃避...
我也不知道..

但我知道我开始慢慢地有心机了...
不是很多，就一点点...
也没那么单纯了...
不是说会做坏事或害人还是骗人，
只是开始了解真实社会的表态，
也许就像有人告诉我说我开始明白和踏入一小步了...

金钱，名义，利益，付出的结果
应该很多人在乎吧..
我开始慢慢了解着一些，
前几个礼拜，我才经过这些诱惑，
那时候的我觉得
当一个人付出时，应该获得回报，
当一个人帮了你，应该要有感恩的心，
当一个人给了你利益，你也要报答回他，
我曾那么想过...
这个问题是值得思考的...=)

有一些人付出同样多的时间，经历，代价，
但，
每一个人得到的成果并不一样...
这就是每一个人的领悟能力和看得重点都不一样...
而不是他聪明还是笨...

*付出的人比得到的人更有成就感*

update

this few months passed through safely...
last few week i got my exam, which i got my gpa with 3.7+.
It had balanced back my cgpa and achieved 3.6+.
well, i m quite satisfied with it although just improved a bit...
i realised that the causes why i could not get a or a- for all subjects is....
my coursework and practical marks...which only between b+ and b range..
i shared the result with my mum, piano teachers..
They all felt very happy and encouraged me to keep it up..hope it will not dropped in this sem.
LAst fri, i went to kuantan with my coursemates. This was my 1st trip.
1st day i had reached there about 5.20 in the evening.
after dinner then went to shopping mall with coursemates(pui ling and coffee mint) and i knew a new friend=D

second day, i went to teluk cempedak beach.
I already had a long time didnt go to beach..
felt so happy when stepped on the seashore. But we didnt stay long,
because the sky was turning dark and the japan tsunami was just happened not long ago.
After that we went to xiao wei's bf haoz and shopping mall.
During night, we went back to the beach again, and had a walk and supper at there.
Felt enjoy and relax..
The third day,

we woke up early in the morning and followed pui ling's family went to breakfast together.
Afterthat went back to pack our things.

After lunch then we straight went to bus station.
Although it was a short vacation,
it was fun and i had conquered a place..waha..=D
BY the way, i wanted to say thank u to pui ling 's family because keep bringing us to here and there, cooked a lot of nice food for us to eat, and paid for our lunch and supper.. really appreciated it a lot...=)
and my next trip will be klang.
Hope so~~ I hope that i can walk through all the places in west malaysia when i m studying at KL. Hope my wish comes true..=D
This week is the week 5, 3 more weeks, i will be having exam again~~
although it is a short semester, whole sem is busying with assigment and so on.
And i can feel that i m getting lazier~~
which is a bad sign..
I tried too remind myself what i want..
it does works but..just few hours only..
maybe, should let me fall down, then i just get the lesson =(

Happy new year~~~

Sorry for so laate update..

everyone,

Happy new year~~

Some of my angpaoSSssss =D

Tomorrow 2.o5pm,i will be going back to KL and start my semester again..

but,

end of april will be coming back again =D

Time flies~~

Next tues (22/2) my last semester result will be out. *nervous*

no confident at all....

Well, this time i went back to kuching,

mostly of my friends, relatives and others said me became fatter and put on weight..

i am admit that,

because after i went to kl studied,

i never went for any exercise or dance.

This time,

i already decided that i will be joining dancing, orchestra, exercise and so on

(if there is any chances)

I want my college life full with worthful stuff & interesting memories and experiences..

first day of new year~~ with my mum *with bad skill of captured photo*

second day of new year, with my aunty. She looks better and nier than inside the photo.

that s my cat(omi)=P

3rd day of new year =)

my form 5 friendsss ^^

4th day of new year, after came back from church

Abalone & shark fins(my sis bought)

NIce~~ i ate a lot..=D

Yummy..>>long long shark fins

yesterday outing with church friends

me,kristine & mei qi

here just some of my pictures only~~

HOpe eryone can enjoy their new year happily!!

HAve a blessed year~~ =D

safely reached home

this is my 2nd long semester holiday break.

i m going to stay at Kuching for 3 weeks.

well, everyone says me put on weight.

Honestly, this is the truth,

haiz,

i had thrown a lot of my old trousers, pants, and jeans. =,(

14 feb 2011, mon,i ll be going back to Kl, continue my third short semester.

yesterday, i just realised that next year sept will be my dip convo day.

well, it seems to be quite long but it also can arrived in a short time.

of course i will continue my degree after that..

hope master also can be completed...*greedy* =D

Now just let me enjoy my holidays..

& prepare for new year =)

hope everyone can enjoy their new year happily and filled with joyfulness.

i wanted to dye my hair,

i want to find my friends,

i want to do a lot of thingsSS....=D

tata..=)

exAM EXAM EXAM

well, i m having exam now..

i started to loss concentration on exam,

because i keep thinking of i can go back to my sweet hometown and celebrate new year with my family, friends & everyone!!!

this coming saturday, 9.35am i will be sitting in the flight and going back to KUCHING!! =D

but, before that this coming monday is my last exam,

which is the most unfamiliar subject for me..

some i think i can score well, some subjects i think i only manage to get a b+ or even B.

i want to do better and improve.

Sometimes, human tend to be greedy and started to compete with others.

tried to remind myself,

DOnt be greedy,

as long there is an improvement,

that is enough..=)

in the same time,

some of my form 6 friends came to kl for a trip.

i feel so guilty that i cannot go and find them.

before that i stil promised them that i will go and have fun with them..

Now then,i realised that promise should not make without thinking carefully.

it may makes people feel disappointed to u.

i dont know what decision i should make now..

Fel, i already promised that i m going to find u guys,

i knw u will say is ok, exam is important,

i also miss u guys alot..

already had a long time didnt have fun with u guys.

I already felt regret & guilty that i could not experience & share the stress, sadness or happiness with u guys when stpm coming...

I feel like i already lossed of one part of memory and getting far with u all.

hoped to be one part with u all...=)

This is my exam timebtaable =)

College January 2011 Examination Time-table

SCHOOL OF ARTS AND SCIENCE

DIPLOMA IN SCIENCE (CHEMISTRY AND BIOLOGY)

KUALA LUMPUR
FIRST YEAR
DATE	TIME	PAPER	DESCRIPTION	DURATION
THURSDAY	AM	AELE2263	ENGLISH FOR COMMUNICATION
06/01/2011		DCB1-62	CH(309-370)	2 hrs
SATURDAY	PM	AACB1223	HOMEOSTASIS AND EXCRETION
08/01/2011		DCB1-62	R6(5-66)	2 hrs
TUESDAY	PM	AACB1123	ORGANIC CHEMISTRY
11/01/2011		DCB1-62	PA8(1-62)	2 hrs
THURSDAY	AM	AAMS1433	INTRODUCTORY CALCULUS
13/01/2011		DCB1-62	H3(1-62)	2 hrs
SATURDAY	AM	AACB1143	ANALYTICAL CHEMISTRY
15/01/2011		DCB1-62	V5(7-68)	2 hrs
MONDAY	PM	AACB1243	RESPONSE AND COORDINATION
17/01/2011		DCB1-62	H6(1-62)	2 hrs

Session

MONDAYS - SUNDAYS	:	Morning Papers (AM) will commence at 9.00 a.m.
MONDAYS - THURSDAYS, SATURDAYS & SUNDAYS	:	Afternoon Papers (PM) will commence at 2.00 p.m.
FRIDAYS	:	Afternoon Papers (PM) will commence at 2.30 p.m.
MONDAYS - SATURDAYS	:	Evening Papers (VM) will commence at 6.00 p.m.

happy 2011

sorry for late greeting with all of u guys happy 2011 ><

i was busying with my exam...

this year is rabbit year & is my brother's year.. he' s going to be 24 years old...

this has indicates me is going to be 20 years old..

time flies~~~ suddenly, my age started with 2 without any mentally or physically preparation. anyways , just wanted to wish u guys a blessed year

& go for what u want..

make your dreams come true..

& so do i...=)

My christmas in kL & kuching =)

Sorry for late update.><.

this few days i was busy with a lot of things, and exam is coming..

well, i had celebrated my christmas at my hometown. I

went back to my hometown at 24 dec until 27 dec..

Before i went back to kuching,

on 18 december,

i had joined carroling at KL,

we went to prima setapak, and sang 12 christmas songs at the block A function room.

this is the 1st time that i had a chance to join carroling in KL.

The procedure was quite same with the styles that i had in kuching church.

just that, we sang more songs..

haha..i took few photos with my friends and kids, actuali were quite a lot..

IN SHORT, it was a enjoyable event~~!!

Eatiing time~~

event ended..

most of the church member said the girl(ah mei) looks alike with me

After carolling..

A new friend that i just know..

all of us...^^

the day i went back to kuching,

was not that successful, the flight delayed,

besides that,

a guard required me to open my luggage and checked when i went through the 'kastam',

i almost late for the time to check in..

about 3 something, i just reached kuching.

my 1st dinner was rice with butter prawn, mix vegetables, see cucumber soup, salted egg..

hehe..

during christmas, i almost spent most of my time at church,

i felt proud when i saw the sunday school drama was successful,

because all the dances were taught by me...=)

within this 4 days 3 night in kuching,

i ate A LOT,

my aunt & uncle 'belanja' me eat,

visited my granma,

went for shopping,

& my mum bought 2 new dresses for new year..

enjoyable & fun days always passed very fast..

this is my christmas celebration for year 2009 ^^

worth & touched

it is worth that to spend an hour to watch this story...
how is guy has faith and trust to God in full heart..
he taught me a big lesson..
his story is diferent with others..
no matter in family, relationship or in family business..

he is the owner of lot 10, star hill gallery, biggest private electricity company in malaysia, & lots more of shopping centre, restaurants, hotels and Yes.